i had to say it.
You are probably going to think i am crazy
but i had to tell You. and i just
can't bring myself to say it when W/we talk.
i'm sure You're thinking, how can i love You?
i dont even know You.
But, i do know You.
i just dont know Your mannerisms.
i think of You all the time
not just sexually, but what it would be like
to be with You, in a "normal" Master/sub life.
What it would be like to wake up with You
to do daily things with You, and, to
fall asleep in Your arms.
i want to take care of You
To make You happy in every way possible
To always be there for You....with You.
i know i am so very happy when i am with You.
i fell for You from the inside out.
It didnt matter what You looked like
i just knew i wanted to be with You.
You have always ruled this relationship
and i have no regrets
Living by Your rules fullfills me.
And i would never do anything knowingly
that would hurt what W/we have.
i have alway been truthful with You
i have never lied
and i still after all these years
follow the rules You have set.
i can't imagine giving anyone
what i want to give You..
my heart, mind, my body, my soul
to be completely submissive to You.
To wear Your collar would be the greatest
gift i could ever recieve.
i trust You with every ounce of my being
You are my confidant, my best friend, my lover.
Everything i want/need in a Master.
i dont want to make You uncomfortable
with all this, and if i have, i am truly sorry.
i wont bring this up again.
But, i had to tell You.
Regardless of the outcome.
If You choose to just walk away
i understand.
i would hurt terribly, but i would understand.
Just know, that i feel i am a better person/submissive
because of what You have brought into my life.
Billie Meyer